2025, what the fuck has this year been? Back in 2024 I realized that I am a transwoman. After coming to terms with that and finding a fantastic therapist I was hopeful coming up on the end of that year. Then November happened, the Orange fuck was elected and a time that was filled with hope and the first genuine happiness I had felt since I was a very young child quickly turned to shit. I decided to forgo HRT through the normal, legal manner and started DIY HRT back in March of this year. It’s the best decision I’ve ever made, even if the government wants me dead.
Unfortunately I live in Florida, Spring Hill specifically, a place where there aren’t many resources for us and even less in terms of a community. Between that, the 2-3 hour daily commute to my job that barely pays my bills due to an economy that is killing normal people, being sick for a total of 3 weeks and that’s not counting a surgery in June, and simply struggling to manage having 3 dogs, a flock of ducks, and a whole ass house on a half an acre while having ADHD I have been slowly deteriorating mentally and physically . Let me tell you, executive dysfunction is a major bitch.
That’s a part of why I started this site. A place where I can scream into the void and find an outlet for my creative pursuits when the rare occasion hits me.
But there is light on the horizon, I have decided to move to New York (not the city, I want to live in something that isn’t made of cardboard)to live with my 91 year old grandmother so she can stay in the house she’s been in since 1963. Moving back to New York has been a dream of mine, even long before I realized I’m trans. Now that it’s finally happening some of that hope has trickled back in. I’m lucky, I know that. I own my car and my home so when I do move up next year I’ll be doing so with roughly 2 years of salary and that’s if my current job doesn’t allow me to go remote. My grandma knows I’m trans and is supportive, though to be honest who knows if she even remembers because it’s not something that is a part of my daily conversations with her.
Anyway, stay tuned for some writing, I’ve got a really cool cyberpunk-fantasy setting that I’m working on and I plan on posting my writings in the setting here as I ramp up to eventually attempting a full novel. I’ll also be posting on this site any art I commission as well as any videos I may decide to make that could relate to a wide variety of topics.
If you’ve made it this far I’d just like to thank you for reading my disjointed stream of consciousness and I hope you stick around to see what comes in the future.
Love,
Val
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